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Few things I feel blessed about...

1. I do not live in Vancouver any more and I intend not to.

2. My friends are true, honest, pure and far distant from my sensitivity border. We each have lives of our own, and we don't group cross.. In fact, having close ties to married couples are the healthiest of all relationships you can have from my perspectives.. Some how, I feel distant to single people.

3. I did 'not' come across the reality of my old relationship while being in it.

4.To be a different person, I sure needed to do different things and things differently, which I did. God bless those who came across my path in the past two years, and thanks to them, I'm a whole adopted version of Kimi...: Headieh and her beautiful soul, Sophie and Elissa, my two lovely angels whom I felt alive with since they were born.. Abouzar, Headie's husband and the father... Who is an older brother, in every sence... Shole joun, Sina khaan and Hirad, the grand parents and the uncle who are my own family now.... I just feel them in my blood, with whom I grew and saw what I really was and deserved to be. Maman Najme(Aji) and Ali jaan, who lifted me with power point hints about life that was the resultant of 7 decades of living purposefully and differently. The way I want to live. Mahmud and Maryam, for being true friends, at every occasion... Saloume and Arash, and their beautiful kids Sophia and Katia who were not only neighbors, not only friends, but parts of growth process.. I learned much more about life in the past two years than my whole life..

5. Then it came Kiavash, whom I refer to not only as my friend, love, lover, boy friend, partner, but a good reflection of my better self. He soothed me with his music, concieved me from scratch with his beautiful voice, his tenderness, at times bitterness and sensitivity, with his deep look, the right amount of depth that lifts your spirit, motivates you and makes you run for it... He opened me up to life, to womanhood, to having the right to have expectations and yet never giving into it, and to a second part of my life which I feel strongly positive about.... I am proud of having him in my life. He is not a faultless hero, nor am I his faultless Heroin, but we push and pull and and we dance it through. Whether he can join me later in States or not, he has my prayers all the way.... Thank you Azize dele Kimi.... Thank you.....